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To all of my dear friends & followers, my dad is losing his battle with cancer. And the sadness I feel is a burden beyond which I can shoulder alone.

(Side note: I know many of you come to this blog for fun & fabulous inspiration – and trust me, I DO NOT judge you for being like “eh, I’ll read the next post when we are back to lipstick, chic wardrobe, & cocktails!” Trust me! I would much prefer sharing with you all of that fabulousness as well! So if you do not wish to read the rest of this post, I hope you have an amazing day and can’t wait to have you back to share awesomeness next week!)

And for those of you who are still reading, this blog is an outlet for me – and right now I happen to be grieving and if some of you are too, let’s try to share the burden together.

Four years ago (on my husband’s birthday, actually) my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 colon and liver cancer and my life hasn’t been the same since. In those four years, my life has had incredible highs and the lowest of lows dealing my dad’s diagnosis. He has had successful treatments, fought like a maniac, and not given up. Not for one second. But this disease will eventually take his life.  And as his time on earth comes to a close, I can’t help but feel the physical pain of what his loss will mean to my life.

Me and my sister Meghann with my dad, Mike.

With that said, I don’t think God gives us grief or loss in a way to hurt, humiliate, or harm us. But rather, to show us how love permeates our life in other ways. The God that I know & love will always love me back. And through this season of my life (and my dad’s life) there has always been joy. There is joy in each phone call that I have with my dad. In every memory that makes me smile (did anyone else’s dad celebrate “pancake saturday” with the kind of relish that mine exemplified on a weekly basis??) My dad has always been quick with a laugh, loving, kind, and patient – and for a man with four daughters, I’m fairly certain that hasn’t always been easy!

So through this grief, pain, sadness, and sorrow, I choose love. Let’s all cherish, honor, laugh, love and hope every.single.day.

Helen Keller said, “What we have once enjoyed deeply we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.” So I’m choosing love. I’m going to love my dad every day for the rest of my life, and especially for the rest of his. I’m going to love & appreciate the memories we have shared. I’m going to love my family as we travel this road together. And I’m going to accept the love that is given to me through this journey.

If your heart is heavy right now, feel free to share your burden right here and I promise that I will lift you up in prayer. Let’s be here for each other, and remember that LOVE WINS.

Love never fails. 1 Cor. 8. Thank you for opening your heart & allowing me to share this with you.

xo, Cassie

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104 Responses to “When Grief is Too Much.” Subscribe

  1. Lindsay May 10, 2014 at 3:59 pm #

    Hey Cassie! I can’t believe I’m just now finding your blog! I’m a travel blogger based here in Nashville, and we have a few friends in common on Facebook. You left a comment after one I made on Kristen Luna’s page, which led me to your page, then your blog! Anyway, I digress!

    Firstly, I was saddened to read this post but felt inclined to reach out immediately. I lost my mother to pancreatic cancer in December of 2011, and even though it’s been a little over 2 years, it all at once seems like yesterday as well as eons ago. My grief will always endure, but it changes, as it dilutes over time and gives way to memories of happiness and good times.

    I really did feel like my world- my life- was ending when my mother passed. I’ve written about it a good bit on my blog (even though, like you, I try to focus on happier, inspirational stories and insights). It is an outlet, and I want my readers to know me. My mother was an integral part of my life, and I couldn’t keep my feelings and struggles from my audience. It didn’t feel authentic. I still receive emails from people going through or who went through something similar with a loved one, and it warms my heart to know we can talk and help each other through the hardest of times. Life can be so very difficult.

    If you are interested, here are a couple of posts I wrote about my loss and grief: http://thetraveluster.com/2013/09/my-story-of-loss-to-pancreatic-cancer/ and http://thetraveluster.com/2013/12/on-love-loss-family-tradition/

    Thank you for sharing your story. I pray for your family- for strength and healing and love….

    • Woman May 12, 2014 at 9:22 pm #

      So sweet, Lindsay. Thank you for this kind & thoughtful comment! I appreciate you sharing your links! xo

  2. Jenna Sumner January 1, 2014 at 2:32 am #

    Cassie, I’m sorry this has happened. I think you are brave for bringing this up on your blog. I want you to know I’m thinking about you and your family, through this trying time. I am leaving you and your family with LOVE and prayers!

  3. Becky W December 16, 2013 at 8:29 pm #

    Cassie, I received an e-mail today about the death of your father. I had met him only once (in Vegas at a trade show) but talked to him on the phone numerous times and was always amazed at his up-beat attitude and demeanor. My husband and I’s business are his Apollo representatives in the state of Virginia. I came across this blog and just wanted to reach out to you and your family. Mike and my husband talked about business, but more importantly, about family, Your father spoke of his with such love and admiration. Our thoughts and prayers are with all of you at this difficult time. Chris and Becky Waltz

  4. Kara Bounds October 29, 2013 at 5:27 pm #

    Dear Cassie,
    My heart aches for you and your family. On a cold snowy day in January 2000, my Dad, sisters and I had to bury our beautiful, kind hearted loving Mom after a courageous battle with cancer. In December of last year, friends of ours daughter died in her sleep while receiving treatment @ Johns Hopkins.(www.karmaforcara.org) It amazes/baffles me how we can put people in space and on the moon, but cant find a cure for this disgusting, cruel wretched disease. I wish I had some magic words to take away your pain, but alas, only time will do that. My only words of advice is to reassure your Dad you will be okay when he crosses over and that it is okay to be too tired to fight anymore. My family and I were with our Mom as she crossed over, which was absolutely gut wrenching, but beautiful at the same time. Yes, she was in a coma, but I know she could hear us or so I like to think. We sat with her, laid with her, talked to her, cried to her, held her hand and even told funny stories and laughed until we were crying during the 6 hours and eight minutes it took for her to let go. You could tell she didn’t want to go. She didn’t want to leave us. She wanted to keep fighting. She wasn’t a quitter. She didn’t want us to have to light a Relay For Life candle in her memory, but to continue lighting it in honor of her courageous battle. The chemotherapy worked. The radiation worked. The stem cell transplant was a success. She had the best doctors and nurses in the world at Johns Hopkins fighting with her. She wasn’t suppose to die. She was going to be the one to survive Non-Hodgkins Lymphoma. She was only 59. She was my Dad’s whole life. The love of his life since high school. Her youngest daughter just had her first baby; her first grandson. Her granddaughters, ages 10, 4 and 5, needed their “MeMe.” Us 4 girls needed their Mom. How would we survive without her. She was our rock. She was invincible. You are suppose to bury your parents when they are 100, not 59. She wont be at my wedding. SHE WASNT SUPPOSE TO DIE DAMMIT!!!! These were all of the thoughts that were running through my head that day and after. It has been 13 years and 10 months since our beautiful Mom crossed over. Some days it seems like that many years, but others days it feels like she was just here yesterday. I miss her. I miss her words of wisdom. I miss her smile. I miss the sound of her laughter. I miss the smell of her Estee Lauder perfume. I miss her southern accent. I miss the sound of her voice. I just plain ole miss having a Mom. Yes, it has been hard and sad not having her here. Some days are harder than other days, especially for our Dad. He still wears his wedding ring and hasn’t even gone to lunch with another woman let alone date someone. It is as if he died that day, too. As for Lisa, Paige Susan and I, our Mom’s death brought us closer to one another, if that was even possible. We talk about her all of the time, especially with her grandchildren. I talk to her every night. I make a drink, sit outside, look up in the sky and tell her about my day or just talk to her about life in general. She because she died doesn’t mean she never lived. Look at me. Here I am rambling on to someone I have never even met. I apologize. I really just wanted to send you good vibes and let you know you aren’t alone. Life is short. LIVESTRONG/LOVESTRONG. Thinking of you, your Dad and her family. Kara

  5. Cindy Pearce October 20, 2013 at 11:43 pm #

    Cassie,

    Your mom is one of my dearest friends from our college days at La. Tech. We were in a tight-knit group of 12 KD sisters who formed a bond that still exists today. (In fact, all 12 of us were together in Napa for 5 days this summer.) I knew Mike – such a big, handsome guy with a ready smile and outgoing personality. Your mom e-mailed us the link to your blog and I’m thankful that she did. Your words touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes. There is no doubt that your wonderful loving mother and family, your amazing attitude and wisdom beyond your years, and your faith will get you through this time. God bless you for sharing this tribute to your dad and love.

    Cindy “Irby” Pearce

    • Woman October 21, 2013 at 1:23 am #

      Cindy – Thank you for being such a great friend to my mom! I appreciate this sweet comment so much, and I love hearing about what my parents were like in college (even if they may cringe at a story or two! ha ha). My dad is DEFINITELY still a handsome guy with a ready smile & outgoing personality :-) Thank you for reading! xo

  6. Tamara October 20, 2013 at 6:17 pm #

    Cassie, your mom is my dear sweet college roommate. I say IS because in my heart we are still roommates. She saw me through losing my own dad when I was 19. Because of the love you and Mike shared, you will unconsciously honor your dad every day your entire life, passing his memories, traditions, integrity, and loving ways to your own children. He will NEVER be truly gone. May God hold you through this trying time.
    Tamara

    • Woman October 21, 2013 at 1:21 am #

      Tamara – Thank you for this incredibly kind comment, and thank you for remaining a steadfast, true friend to my mom! xxxxx

  7. Abby October 20, 2013 at 5:54 am #

    I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. I can’t even imagine. Your post got my teary eyed at how positive and uplifting your post was even while dealing with such a trying time.

    It’s refreshing to see such a real, honest post on a fashion, etc. blog.

    You should post a picture of you and your dad that is more current :)

    Thinking of you and your family during this difficult time.

    Abby

    • Woman October 21, 2013 at 1:20 am #

      Abby, thank you so much for your sweet response :-) xo

  8. Terri October 18, 2013 at 6:50 pm #

    This post is such a compliment to your readers. Thank you for entrusting your Womanista gang with helping you to carry this oh so heavy burden.
    I can’ t even begin to imagine life on earth without my dad…even thinking about it makes my heart break – so thinking of you experiencing this at your young age makes my heart sad. But reading your words and thinking how you you are even MORE beautiful on the inside than your gorgeous outer self makes my heart smile. Truly a fabulous Womanista!

    Sending prayer that love and peace continue to be the
    dominant force for you and your family.

    • Woman October 19, 2013 at 2:40 pm #

      Thank you so much, Terri!! This absolutely made my day! Thank you for taking the time to leave such a sweet, special comment! :-) xo

  9. Kerri Smart October 17, 2013 at 12:40 am #

    I just came across your post while searching for a family prayer. I’m truly sorrow for your pain and your journal was so meaningful. As I type this, my cousin 34 was diagnosed not even 2 yrs ago with stage IV colorectal cancer, tumors in his stomach, liver & lungs… Like your dad my cousin Corey has fought the good fight and his time here is coming to an end. We are all grief stricken & can’t even comprehend not having Corey in all of our lives. He is a husband, a father, a son, a cousin a brother s friend. He has 2 small children and we too will choose LOVE. We will spend Corey’s final days showering him with all of our love and we will cherish each and every memory and moment with him.

    Praying for every family who knows the heartbreak of such unimaginable loss and asking our Lord to comfort those in pain during this unbearable time. Peace, Love, comfort and understanding is what I pray for. So very sorry for what your family is facing.

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:52 am #

      Kerri, you are so kind to leave this note. I am so so sorry for the grief your family is feeling too. It seriously seems so unfair & unthinkable sometimes. But there is no better lesson for his children to learn than that of love & compassion. Especially through the eyes of loss & defeat. Praying hard for you, and your family. Lord, please bless and keep Kerri’s family through this time of sickness & loss. Please remind her that while illness can overtake the body, it can NEVER overcome the soul. Please encourage her to love big, and seek your guidance & comfort when she feels broken. Amen.

  10. Miller October 15, 2013 at 6:50 pm #

    Cassie – praying for you and all of your family. We were so grateful to run into your sweet Dad on Sunday. Know it’s a tough, tough road, and he has traveled it with such resilience and grace.

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:54 am #

      Thank you so much, Miller. If there is a photo next to “joy” and “positive attitude” in the dictionary, it MUST be a pic of my dad :-)

  11. Tracee October 15, 2013 at 2:06 pm #

    I hope God gives you strength in this troubling time. The fact that you can find the silver lining and choose love is a testiment to how well you were raised. After all that is the true purpose in parenting: to create loving people armed with the right tools to survive this thing called life. God Bless you!

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:55 am #

      Thank you, Tracee. This made my day! I appreciate your note.

  12. Lauren Black October 14, 2013 at 3:05 pm #

    This brought a tear to my eye. It sounds like you have so many wonderful memories of him to cherish forever. Hold on to those. I’ll be praying for you, your dad, and your family! xoxo

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:55 am #

      Thanks, Lauren! xxx

  13. Nicole October 13, 2013 at 5:15 pm #

    I will keep you and rest of the McConnell (and Kelley) family in my thoughts and prayers. I can’t imagine the pain of this, but I know that you are strong and God is strong, and in Him you will find peace. Love you Cassie, you’re an amazing and beautiful woman. God bless you and your family always. :)

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:56 am #

      Thank you, Nicole! :-)

  14. Lisa October 12, 2013 at 2:36 am #

    Cassie – I’m so sorry for your sadness. I think all too many of us have lost someone to cancer. It saddens me that cures for this awful disease have not been found yet.

    Your post is beautifully written. Your faith and strength amaze me.

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:57 am #

      Thank you, Lisa. I’m praying for a miracle, and a cure!! I appreciate your note. xx

  15. Veronica S October 11, 2013 at 10:36 pm #

    This just breaks my heart Cassie. I’m thinking of you and praying for you. I know how it is to loose someone dear to cancer and it’s really nothing I wanna go trough again. God doesn’t give us more than we can bare, but sometimes it feels that way. All my thoughts to you and I’m sending a hug your way. You are in my prayers<3
    Lots of love.

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:58 am #

      Thanks, Veronica! xx

  16. Mandy October 11, 2013 at 8:24 pm #

    It’s never easy to lose a parent, I lost my dad three years ago in August after him being ill for 6 weeks. I still think about him all the time. Cancer is an evil disease and not something I wish on anyone to deal with. When I lost my dad I found comfort in a song by Johnathan Clay called I’m not gone. I’ll keep you guys in my prayers. Xoxo

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 2:58 am #

      Thanks, Mandy. I will definitely check that song out! xx

  17. Cathy October 11, 2013 at 3:36 pm #

    Cassie, I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Daddy! You have amazing faith and love, and I will be lifting you and your family up in prayer. So glad that you have had such a great relationship with him. In the end, all we really have are the memories! Thank you for sharing this on your blog. I so appreciate the honesty, as it is “real life” that we will all have to deal with at some point. Lots of love to you and the family!

    • Woman October 18, 2013 at 3:01 am #

      Thank you, Cathy! Walking through this is certainly easier with love, laughter, and memories. Plus, if we are dealing with “real life” at some point, we might as well be wearing a fabulous outfit at the same time!! :-) xxx

  18. Nicole bays October 11, 2013 at 2:40 am #

    Cassie I will have you in my prays everyday I know what it feels
    Losing someone u love so much I lost my grandpa when I was 12 I can picture him up there watching football and swearing at them that’s what he always did during football season he use to call me his little princess stay strong Cassie

    Nicole

    • Woman October 11, 2013 at 2:00 pm #

      Thanks Nicole :-)

      • nicole bays October 15, 2013 at 12:09 am #

        just hang in there cassie have charles find ways to make you smile and laugh to lift your spirts.

  19. Heather Butler October 11, 2013 at 1:55 am #

    First of all, never apologize for sharing your feelings (even if it happens to be on your super fun fashionista blog). I lost my Dad to a stroke without any warning 5 years ago so I understand the grief you are talking about. I have to say that the minute I read the first part of this post, I knew I wanted to reply and say I’d be praying for you and your family (which I will) however, I find myself wanting to give you a little shout out of admiration as well! Your words on choosing love and going through the process are so wonderful and powerful. They show that Gods love permeates you! I’ve only met you once, but recall thinking what a sweet woman you were! Keep your head up and your heart focused on God. When the pain is too much to bear, always feel free to share. There’s comfort in being in this grief club, that no one wants to ever join.
    Love and prayers!!!

    • Woman October 11, 2013 at 2:06 pm #

      Heather, this means so much to me! You are so awesome :-) Thank you for sharing such kind words xxx

  20. VA October 11, 2013 at 1:48 am #

    So beautiful, Cass. Love that you share your love for us all every day. This among many other reasons is why you are an inspiration and treasure. Connection is what we all seek and it can’t happen without first and foremost love.

    • Woman October 11, 2013 at 2:07 pm #

      Thanks, Ginny. Love you! xx

  21. Julie October 10, 2013 at 10:37 pm #

    Love your family so much and feel honored to have known your dad for almost 20 years now. He is a wonderful person, husband and father. Prayers and thoughts to the whole clan during this time… you should check out “The Magical Year of Thinking”. It will ring so true to you during this time. xoxox – Julie

    http://www.nytimes.com/2005/10/09/books/review/09pinsky.html?pagewanted=all&_r=0

    • Woman October 11, 2013 at 2:08 pm #

      Thanks Julie :-) I will check it out. And thanks for being such a sweet friend xxx

  22. Christy October 10, 2013 at 10:28 pm #

    You are strong. You are loved. Your dad is loved by so many and liked by all who meet him! We inlaws and outlaws have prayed for him and all of you for so long. Hugs from me and my house! Wish something I said was profound enough to help but I know nothing does. Just know that he is thought of daily and so is the rest of your clan. Love you!

    • Woman October 11, 2013 at 2:08 pm #

      Thanks Christy! Love you! xxxxx

  23. Amanda October 10, 2013 at 10:22 pm #

    Thank you for sharing your heart with us Cassie. Your blog reminded me of a quote I found years ago while dealing with my own grief. I often look back at it when others I love are facing such hurt, or even in my own family unit, when I get scared that cancer will one day steal what I treasure most – in alignment with what you said, it has been the only thing I have ever read that made me feel like there is a way to deal with such sorrow and in turn help the contributions of those that pass live on through us.

    “Death, with it’s best efforts, with its stealing of the body, with its silencing of the heart beat, with its seeming finality will NEVER be, nor has it ever been, stronger than love.”

    AWR

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 10:27 pm #

      Amanda that is BEAUTIFUL! Thank you for sharing. That is so awesome :-) xxx

  24. Kimberly Fennessy October 10, 2013 at 9:33 pm #

    Cassie! Thank you for sharing this! After just losing my Dad in June I have had only 4 short months to learn a few things and one is that LOVE is the best path to choose! After my Dad’s passing I realized there are so many signs in your daily routine that will pop up and hit you in the face and you’ll think “there you are dad.” Some days you will feel so much love that it will feel unfair that he was taken from you but those are the days you have to remember that you had an AMAZING father and better yet he was a FIGHTER! We will face challenges in our future no doubt but like I said in the short few months my dad has been gone…there are days I look at myself in the mirror and see him and his strength in me. Those are his gifts he will pass on to you. He will always, always, always be with you.
    Love you guys. You are all in my thoughts.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:51 pm #

      Kimmy – this is so sweet. I’m so glad you get those “winks” from your dad on a regular basis. You, Matt, and your mom have shown us all what love and strength really look like! Thank you for this awesome note :-) xx

  25. Lil October 10, 2013 at 9:27 pm #

    Cass – you, your sisters and your fam have all of my vibes and are in my thoughts. I am amazed by the power of your words, what you just shared with the collective ‘us’, and how incredible your strength is during this time. Sending light, hugs and love your way.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:49 pm #

      Thank you sweet Lil. xxx

  26. Kevin J Neel October 10, 2013 at 9:24 pm #

    Hey Cass, You and Michaelanne have his eyes. That’s his legacy. It’s you. I am sure he’s proud of you both as you continue on carrying his name, temperament and tenacity to live. I had a brief chat with Claudia and Michaelanne last week when I told them about the best times I had with my mom during her last few weeks of life. (she had a skirmish with pancreatic cancer and lost in 2008). Great deep talks and philosophy on life made me who I am today. THAT is her legacy in me. Let him know how he will live through you and that will make both of you better. Cheers friend :) Lean on God

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:49 pm #

      Thanks so much, Kevin. I have a lot of my dad in me, but Michaelanne IS him in female form :-) Take care of her in the coming weeks and months, please. I appreciate this note so much! xx

  27. Tracy October 10, 2013 at 9:23 pm #

    Thank you for this post. It was tough to read. My dad passed away on April 20 — almost 11 months to the day after receiving a diagnosis of lung cancer. Those 11 months and many days since then have been the most difficult of my life, and like you said, life has been forever changed. I feel what you are going through, and I am so so sorry. The pain (physical, emotional, psychological, even spiritual) of witnessing a father’s decline is almost unbearable. It can be all-consuming. You feel like you cannot take a deep breath, that your heart will literally break, and that your body will explode into a gazillion pieces. Some days, I was not able to focus or function. I was inconsolable. Then, just as you have discovered, all that they have given us since the day we were born-the LOVE we share- arrives in time to pull the pieces back together, soothing and nurturing our broken hearts, urging us to take that deep breath and just LOVE and BE GRATEFUL for the time we have had, the time we have left, and for having had this amazing person to call dad at all. You are so right on when you say LOVE wins, I say this now all the time. I believe it with all my heart and soul. We lose them physically, but the love is endless. Thank God. I would like to talk with you – more importantly, I would like to listen to what you have on your mind and in your heart. I remember longing to talk to someone, anyone, who could help me or who could understand. I am here. Also, I know your dad and Cindy. I work at HH and they are awesome volunteers. I respect and admire them so much, and I have been praying for them and your family since I found out a few years ago. I can only imagine what an incredible father he is to you and your sisters. Again, I am here if and whenever you should need someone who cares and understands a little of what you are feeling. God bless and keep you.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:47 pm #

      Hey Tracy – I am so so sorry for your loss. It is truly not easy, and every feeling you described, I am feeling currently. I will be praying for your healing, too. Thank you for your kind, honest, and heartfelt comment. xxx

  28. Bekah October 10, 2013 at 9:08 pm #

    Cass I envy your strength and lift your whole family up in prayer. Hoping this time is filled with making as many memories as possible with your dad :) thank you for this post, it hits home in so many ways!

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:39 pm #

      Thanks, Bekah. I appreciate your sweet note! xo

  29. nydia October 10, 2013 at 9:06 pm #

    Oh Cassie im so Sorry that you’re going through this my family and I have lost loved ones one after the other in the past two months. But you’re right lets cherish love and memores. You, your dad and Family will be in my prayers. Love you

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:40 pm #

      Thank you, Nydia. I am so sorry for your losses as well. Hang in there :-) xo

  30. Glenda Smith October 10, 2013 at 8:44 pm #

    Cassie, people grieve in different ways. I read this blog and it is touching. I am Hospice RN. I have seen family members take death and dying different ways. You have some family members that see it death as a blessing because they are healed and not suffering anymore. Then you have the ones that are angry and in denial that does not want to accept the fact that their loved one is terminal and there is nothing else for the doctors to do.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:41 pm #

      Thanks for that insight, Glenda. And I am so thankful for you and other who do so much emotionally and physically for families. Thank you. xo

  31. Liz Presnell October 10, 2013 at 8:36 pm #

    Oh, Cassie! This one has me in tears. Much love sweet friend. I can relate to this on many levels. Sending prayers of peace and comfort for all of you.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:42 pm #

      xxxoooo. Thank you Liz. I know you know what this feels like, and it’s not pretty. Trying to hang in there :-)

  32. Cara October 10, 2013 at 8:36 pm #

    Cassie, you wrote a beautiful tribute to your father and it was also just something to help with perspective. I am grateful for the health thus far of my parents and in-laws, and yet I read something like this and it reminds me never to take that for granted. I am very sorry to hear of your grief and suffering right now, yet the message you end with to let love win is eloquent in its simplicity and positivity. Best to you and your family at this very tough time. Your father is in my thoughts.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:43 pm #

      Thank you Cara. And I wish continued health for your parents & in-laws! I appreciate your kind comment! xo

  33. Tiffany October 10, 2013 at 8:09 pm #

    This is so powerful Cassie! I can’t imagine the pain you’re going through but I’m glad you choose to see the positive side! Praying for you and your family! If there’s anything at all you need, please don’t hesitate to ask! Romans 8:28!

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:44 pm #

      Thank you, sweet Tiffany. I appreciate your prayers! xo

  34. Brooke October 10, 2013 at 7:36 pm #

    Wow, that just brought me to tears, Cass. Perfectly said. I know how special he is and how much he means to you. He is so lucky to have such an amazing, strong, loving daughter who has been by his side every step of the way. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Love you!

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:45 pm #

      Thanks Brookie! you are the best! xxx

  35. Erin October 10, 2013 at 7:29 pm #

    Wow, Cassie, so beautifully stated and such an amazing reminder for all of us. I will keep the prayers coming for your family.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 9:45 pm #

      Thanks, Erin :-) xxx

  36. Kitty Ganier October 10, 2013 at 7:22 pm #

    You are an amazing woman(ista) and I am sending strength and love your way. I cannot imagine what you must be carrying right now or what you must be feeling. I know that you will be an awesome mom, wife, and that you are an awesome friend to all of those that you have touched, do touch, and will touch in the future. Your life is probably just what any dad could hope for for their daughter- one of kindness and strength.

    I’ll even root for the non-orange Ensworth team today in honor of you.
    Love, Kit

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:28 pm #

      Kitty you are such a sweet friend! Thank you for this. xxx

  37. Dolly McNabb October 10, 2013 at 7:19 pm #

    Thinking about you and praying for you Cassie!

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:27 pm #

      Thank you, Dolly! xxx

  38. AnnieDowns October 10, 2013 at 7:13 pm #

    I’m here. Love you.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:27 pm #

      love you back!

  39. Francie October 10, 2013 at 7:10 pm #

    Cassie, This is a wonderful tribute to your father and a beautiful testimony of your faith. I agree God loves us beyond measure and that love wins. I am saying prayers for you, your father, and your family. May each of you have the peace of God that passes all understanding.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:27 pm #

      Thank you, Francie. Love never fails :-) And I never forget that! xx

  40. Francine Lauderdale October 10, 2013 at 7:05 pm #

    Cassie, having just recently lost my husband and the father of my children, your blog left me with tears. What are the odds that my son would meet your sister, marry and both father’s have cancer. Our family have broken hearts but we take each day as it comes. I am so glad that I got to meet your father. He is a warm and loving man. He fought a hard battle. Cancer Sucks! Love and prayers to your entire family. Francine

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:26 pm #

      Francine – what an honor it is for ME to know you, Kimmy, and to have known Bob! Matt and Mikey sure have been through a test over the last year and a half of their marriage…and they will only come out stronger and happier. I am so thankful that my sister has your son as her husband! Lots of love and hugs to you! xx

  41. Raegan October 10, 2013 at 6:06 pm #

    My heart breaks for you! My dad died of cancer in 2006 and not a day goes by that I don’t think about him and wish he was still around. It’s really hard to loose a parent and especially having to watch them go through what cancer does to you. I’ll keep you in my prayers and pray that your dad doesn’t have to endure too much pain. Just remember that this isn’t the end and we’ll all get to see each other again one day!

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:00 pm #

      Thanks, Raegan – I’m so sorry for your loss. Cancer just sucks. Thank you so much for your prayers :-)

  42. Mimi McGlasson Francez October 10, 2013 at 5:37 pm #

    I was so sad to read this !! Your Mom and Dad gave me my first job-circa 1982. Mike would pop into the store always with a great big smile!! The picture you posted is how I remember you, Meghan and your Dad. Please let him know that all of you are in my thoughts and prayers all the way from Lafayette!! My prayer is that all of the wonderful times you have with your Dad will bring comfort to you in the days to come.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:03 pm #

      Mimi – thanks for sharing your memories!! your sweet prayers are also appreciated :-) xx

  43. thefoodgospelaccordingtoruth October 10, 2013 at 5:19 pm #

    So beautifully written Cassie. Your dear family and most certainly your father remain in my thoughts and prayers. For a man who gave so much love and continues to love there is no more precious way to leave this earth than by knowing that loves his love has come back to him 10 fold.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:01 pm #

      Thanks Ruth :-) I appreciate that so much. xxx

  44. Stacey October 10, 2013 at 4:51 pm #

    Thanks for sharing your story, Cassie! I, too, am dealing with the prospect of losing the father that I grew up with being so strong and independent. 6 years ago he was diagnosed with an unknown neurological disorder that impairs his speech, his sight, and his balance. Although he isn’t facing death quite yet, his insecurities have turned him into a different person than the man I grew up with. I’ve now become the parent that he was to me, encouraging him to keep moving and to stay positive. It’s funny how life turns around so quickly! I will continue to pray for you and your family – God will help us through! Lots of love, Stacey

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 7:02 pm #

      Stacey – I am so sorry to hear that your father is struggling. He is so lucky to have a loving, dedicated daughter like you!! Hang in there, and I will pray for peace & healing for you and your dad. xx

  45. Mikele Goodchild October 10, 2013 at 4:26 pm #

    I’m praying for you & your sweet family. You have an amazing & inspiring outlook on what you are going through.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:42 pm #

      Thank you, Mikele! It was great to see you a few weeks ago :-) xx

  46. caroline October 10, 2013 at 4:24 pm #

    I still remember when our dads coached us in softball…good men who led by example. I’ll take care of the Jewish side of the prayer thing for you and your family =)
    -Thinking of you-
    -Caroline-

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:42 pm #

      Thank you, Caroline! I think back to our softball days and laugh and smile! Can you imagine how patient our dads had to be with all of us?? ha ha. Such fun memories. And thank you for your prayers. I appreciate them so much, xx

  47. Nancy Downing October 10, 2013 at 4:22 pm #

    We are told to mourn with those who mourn, so know that I am grieving with you. Thanks for sharing so openly and honestly! I will be praying for you and your family during this difficult time. Hugs–

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:40 pm #

      Thank you, Nancy :-) xx

  48. Mary Jo October 10, 2013 at 4:13 pm #

    so true and so well said, Cassie. lifting you all up in prayer as always.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:40 pm #

      I feel your prayer, Mary Jo! Much appreciated! xx

  49. Page October 10, 2013 at 4:11 pm #

    Beautiful. Love and prayers to your family…

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:40 pm #

      Thank you, Page. xo

  50. Lauren @ The Highlands Life October 10, 2013 at 11:06 am #

    Cassie, I remember when I met you with Catherine, your dad had just been diagnosed. And I can promise you, ever since then your family has been heavy on my heart at different moments and I’ve continued to pray. I hate this for you so know that I’m grieving with you. Because of Christ death has lost its sting. Praying for you, Charles and the whole family.

    • Christiane October 10, 2013 at 4:22 pm #

      So sorry to here what your going through. I really loved your post today, sounds like your dad is one special guy. Keep on loving.

      • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:37 pm #

        Thanks, Christiane :-) He is super special!! xo

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:39 pm #

      Thanks so much, Lauren. And when my dad goes up to be with the Lord, I know the angels will be singing! xx

  51. Mary Pat Crabtree October 10, 2013 at 3:23 am #

    Cassie, keeping you and your family in my prayers. It is very hard to lose a parent. My own daddy passed away eleven years ago and to this day I think of him often. Especially when a certain event, activity and even a smell will trigger a cherished memory of our wonderful time together.

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:37 pm #

      Thank you, Mary Pat. Isn’t it amazing how that love never dies? I am so thankful for that kind of love in my life. And it sounds like you also shared that deep love with your daddy! hugs to you.

  52. Jennifer October 10, 2013 at 1:34 am #

    I am so sorry for you Cassie. Bringing you my love for this deeply sadness time. Jennifer

    • Woman October 10, 2013 at 4:35 pm #

      Thank you, Jennifer. :-)

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